OK. I think I hurt my arm in pilates yesterday. I'm hoping that with some rest (pilates isn't until Tuesday) my arm may get better but if it persists I'll have to go to a doctor. I'm kind of upset with my mom right now. I'm confused as heck in regards to what I'm going to do for my thesis (and that topic is what is making me upset with my mom). I'm tired and I feel so fat.
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I was talking to her tonight because I had orientation for grad school today and I talked to the head of the program, the professor I've been in communication with all summer, and was talking about the various thesis options. I mentioned wanting to take the creative option but I was worried about how conducive that is to getting into a PhD program and he said that most often when you're applying to the PhD programs your thesis isn't done so they don't even read it. He told me to write my thesis for myself. I've always been in love with the idea of doing a more creative thesis, but when I was discussing it with my mom, and mentioned that there was a professor there today that teaches fiction writing classes to the undergrads and that he would be perfect to chair my committee if I chose the creative route she was really unsupportive. She says to me, "But you never did any creative writing in all of your college." I replied that I did some in a couple of my classes, and just because I didn't do it in my classes for requirements doesn't mean I didn't do any creative writing. I didn't say this to her, but what the heck do you think I've been doing with the last five or six years of my life that I've devoted to the novel I stopped writing this summer? If that's not creative writing/fiction writing, I don't know what is.
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I have a maximum of six years to complete my program and graduate. I plan on getting done in two years. I need to decide soon though which thesis option I'm going to do. There's one that requires a 60 page thesis with emphasis on original scholarship and there's one that requires a 30 page thesis with less emphasis on original scholarship. With the first one, I take 24 credits of actual class and 6 credits of a thesis class. With the second, it's 27 class credits and 3 thesis credits. After deciding between those two options it's do I do an academic, research-based thesis or do I do the creative option. Decisions, decisions.
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Well I think that's good advice from the professor. Write your thesis for yourself. Don't let your mom discourage you. I know that's easier said than done but you really have to do it the way you want to do it. I wish I had not let my parents discourage me but I can't go back now.
I have a maximum of six years to complete my program and graduate. I plan on getting done in two years. I need to decide soon though which thesis option I'm going to do. There's one that requires a 60 page thesis with emphasis on original scholarship and there's one that requires a 30 page thesis with less emphasis on original scholarship. With the first one, I take 24 credits of actual class and 6 credits of a thesis class. With the second, it's 27 class credits and 3 thesis credits. After deciding between those two options it's do I do an academic, research-based thesis or do I do the creative option. Decisions, decisions.
I know. It just has always felt like my mom doesn't think I can accomplish any of the dreams I have and wants to almost force me to believe that way too.
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Well I think that's good advice from the professor. Write your thesis for yourself. Don't let your mom discourage you. I know that's easier said than done but you really have to do it the way you want to do it. I wish I had not let my parents discourage me but I can't go back now.
Is she proud of you for pursuing your Masters or is it not really a big deal?
She says she's proud of me. But it sometimes feels like she doesn't want me to do anything except school and heaven forbid I should actually dream and such.
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Well all I can say is it's not your mom's decision. It's your life. I know it's hard not having support but you have to do follow your dreams anyway. You don't want to end up like me.
I would love to do the creative thesis and either do some sort of background on the new novel I'm developing or acutally use the novel as my thesis. Either that or do some sort of autobiographical type thing (either through poetry or a collection of memory-type narratives).
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I would love to do the creative thesis and either do some sort of background on the new novel I'm developing or acutally use the novel as my thesis. Either that or do some sort of autobiographical type thing (either through poetry or a collection of memory-type narratives).
We'll see what comes about. But one thing's for sure. I won't be discussing it with my mom. I'll just inform her that I'm doing it and let it lie there.
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That's so weird. But it is Friday so Lion comes in later because of service. Aisha and Des are fairly unpredictable. They're probably playing with Mario or watching the late night shows. Snootch I think is off work and probably sleeping to try to get over his cold. LL is at work. Kate went to bed. Then there are the ones who are completely random, like Dan and Brax, as to when they stop in.
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