BELIEVE

LionQueen · It Doesn't Matter Who We Were Before ...

BELIEVE

Desmond_Pen · Date: Jan 17, 2009

I can't think of anything at the moment. Only that at 1/2 a century old, I still believe in endless possibilities.

Desmond_Pen · Date: Jan 17, 2009

Oh, and I'm eagerly awaiting reading more of your posts.

LionQueen · It Doesn't Matter Who We Were Before ...

Thank you Des!!! Well, yesterday, I got some things like a wall calendar, a purse one too, a personal planner and some other things. Because I walk so much, I'm n ot a big purse carrier, but I've decided there are great advantages to carrying a purse and so I got a few things to put in it - lol!

I also finally broke down and bought a prepaid cellphone. I needed something with me because nobody hardly ever gets me on the landbased phone - I always let the machine get it when I'm home and then I answer when I know who it is. There's no caller id on it either.

Today I am going to do some things around the house. I am sorting through clothes to see what I honestly don't wear anymore - and I'm getting rid of them. It's so funny, because I always think I have so little when in fact, one of the reasons I get so disorganized so fast is because I can't figure out where to put stuff! Less stuff kinda helps me out I think! Yes??!

I have some thoughts on my new theme, and I'll be sharing them shortly ...They're in little blurbs/fractions but I'll put them together soon!

You can post anything you want here! Doesn't matter if it's a word or two, a picture, a video, a song - doesn't matter as long as it supports the theme! biggrin

Only that at 1/2 a century old, I still believe in endless possibilities. - I like that! smile

LionQueen · It Doesn't Matter Who We Were Before ...

believe

<a href="http://dictionary.reference.com/audio.html/lunaWAV/B02/B0220600" target="_blank"><img src="http://cache.lexico.com/g/d/speaker.gif" border="0" /></a> /bliv/ Show Spelled Pronunciation

[bi-leev] Show IPA Pronunciation

verb, -lieved, -lieving.

verb (used without object)

1.	to have confidence in the truth, the existence, or the reliability of something, although without absolute proof that one is right in doing so: Only if one believes in something can one act purposefully.

verb (used with object)

2.	to have confidence or faith in the truth of (a positive assertion, story, etc.); give credence to.

3.	to have confidence in the assertions of (a person).

4.	to have a conviction that (a person or thing) is, has been, or will be engaged in a given action or involved in a given situation: The fugitive is believed to be headed for the Mexican border.

5.	to suppose or assume; understand (usually fol. by a noun clause): I believe that he has left town.

Verb phrase

6.

believe in,

a.	to be persuaded of the truth or existence of: to believe in Zoroastrianism; to believe in ghosts.

b.	to have faith in the reliability, honesty, benevolence, etc., of: I can help only if you believe in me.

Idiom

7.	make believe. make (def. 46).

Origin:
11501200; ME bileven, equiv. to bi- be- + leven, OE (Anglian) gelfan (c. D gelooven, G glauben, Goth galaubjan)

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Based on the Random House Unabridged Dictionary, © Random House, Inc. 2006.

LionQueen · It Doesn't Matter Who We Were Before ...

lockesladyness · Date: Jan 19, 2009

to believe... to have faith in something... is to have hope..... without hope we whither and die....

LionQueen · It Doesn't Matter Who We Were Before ...

Erase all sense of rational when watching this one ... hehe

LionQueen · It Doesn't Matter Who We Were Before ...

lockesladyness wrote:

to believe... to have faith in something... is to have hope..... without hope we whither and die....

I like that LL :) Thanks!! aww

LionQueen · It Doesn't Matter Who We Were Before ...

Believe

LionQueen · It Doesn't Matter Who We Were Before ...

They said you wouldn't make is so far uh uh
And ever since they said it, it's been hard
But nevermind the nights you had to cry
Cause you have never let it go inside
You worked real hard
And you know exactly what you want and need
So believe and you can never give up
You can reach your goals
Just talk to your soul and say

(Chorus:)
I believe I can (I can)
I believe I will (I will)
I believe I know my dreams are real (know my dreams are real)
I believe I'll stand (Oh yea)
I believe I'll dance
I believe I'll grow real soon and (That's why)
That is what I do believe

Your goals are just a thing in your soul uh uh
And you know that your moves will let them show
You keep creating pictures in your mind
So just believe they will come true in time
It will be fine
Leave all of your cares and stress behind
Just let it go
Let the music flow inside
Forget all your pain
And just start to believe

(Chorus:)
I believe I can (I believe I can oh yea)
I believe I will
I believe I know my dreams are real (All of my dreams are real)
I believe I'll stand
I believe I'll dance (I gotta dance)
I believe I'll grow real soon and (ooo)
That is what I do believe
Whoa oa oa YEA

(Music break)

Nevermind what people say
Hold your head high and turn away
With all our hopes and dreams
I will believe
Even though it seems it's not for me
I won't give up I'll keep it up
Look into the sky
I will achieve all my needs
I will always believe.OoOo

(Chorus 2x)
I believe I can
I believe I will (I can)
I believe I know my dreams are real (I got strength)
I believe I'll stand
I believe I'll dance (I gotta dance)
I believe I'll grow real soon and (watch me watch me watch me)
That is what I do believe (I do believe in me)

I believe I can
I believe I will (oh yea)
I believe I know my dreams are real
I believe I'll stand
I believe I'll dance (I gotta dance)
I believe I'll grow real soon and
That is what I do believe (I do believe! yayeeyay)

-- Edited by LionQueen at 13:09, 2009-01-31

bob_is_lost · Superhero

Let those standing around saying "it cant be done," stand aside and let me accomplish the task because, I believe I can do what cant be done..

LionQueen · It Doesn't Matter Who We Were Before ...

Well, as I posted before ... I'm on the downside ... again. And when a time like this comes in my life, and it always comes, it makes it hard to believe.

When I look at everything that's happened in my life, I think, God ... my life was setup for me to fail form the moment I got here. It was like fail was stamped on my forehead before I even breathed for the first time.

It is so easy to just throw everything down and submit to these feelings. To think what's the use of trying when you are just knocked down by the time you figure out how to stand.

And then I write this out and I answer myself back. Before I took a breath, I didn't know I could breathe. I had to have faith that I could. IT wasn't hard for me to do, even though I had never breathed before. But I just did it and I'm still breathing now.

I couldn't have gotten knocked down unless I was standing, which means I can stand. It usually takes me longer than most people, but I can and I always have.

It sounds kinda corny, but I was watching "V" and the terrorist guy was telling the FBI agent who his favorite boxer was, and why. He said this boxer was his favorite because he was known as saying, I'm the guy that got knocked down 10 times in the ring, but I am known as the guy who got back up.

So, he said what do you want to be remembered as? The guy who always gets knocked down, or the guy who always gets back up?

And then I come to, I was riding around with a friend today who gave me a lift to the grocery store. And I load up on groceries, get in the car and look out the window feeling a bit embarassed at having to get help, and depressed at being in this situation knowing that I always wind up in this situation and can't ever figure out how other people never seem to be.

And when I looked out of the window, I saw a pink and orange sky with a bright red sunset that was kind of all just melting together in the middle of these beautiful sort of creamy looking clouds. It did kind of look like a dreamsicle all blurred together.

I love sunsets. Wasn't until recently that I realized that I love them more than most people I know. I see one and everytime I say "Wow, look it's so beautiful " and then I realize the person with me hasn't even seen it. And when they do, they say .. "Oh yea, it is huh?" and then continue with what they're doing.

I love sunsets because when I feel I am at the end of things in my life, when I just feel like there's just no use in fighting life anymore, I look up and I see this beautiful natural work of art just staring me in the face ... like, here I am.

And all I can think is, wow, that's really what life is.

So many beautiful things to see and to experience. We are here because we're meant to see and experience them, not to spend our lives completely absorbed in all this other crap. Collecting stuff, freaking out and causing ourselves health problems by worrying over things we have no control over, or things we have the power to change but stress, get all emotional and fret over instead.

Rushing to and from work every day, trying to beat the redlight, freaking out over if this is going to be paid on time, or overloading yourself with so much stuff that you can't think straight is not living, it's probably going to result in multiple health problems.

I'm not saying just throw care to the wind and not be responsible. What I am saying is, in the end, noticing the particularly beautiful sunflowers on the road beside you is more important than if you floor it past the yellow light before it turns red.

I am depresed. Seriously. Discouraged and feeling useless. But it's when I feel like this that I remind myself of this stuff. That these things that happen to me, these situations do not determine my value or importance. That as Henry David Thoreau said .. and I've quoted often .. that I don't want to come to the end of my life to find that I have not lived.

And believe me, being incapacitated over work, bills, etc ... is not living.

This believe thing does not mean that life is clean and blissful. How can I believe when it's all there without any effort on my part?

Yes, I am discouraged. I really am. I keep thinking, God, so, what happens when I find another job and that one gets all screwed up and I loose that one? How many jobs can I go through? But As soon as I type it ... I think, yes, this is hard. Not knowing where the money for the bills is going to come from when I have to pay them again.

But, I'm typing this on my computer that is hooked up to the internet which is still connnected to the phoneline. And my phoneline is still coonected to my telephone, which is still connected. And the electricity, which is still running is running throuigh those chords which keeps the fridge cool .. the fridge that has the crapload of food I just bought today inside the roof that I still have over my head right now.

At the moment I'm typing this, I am not homeless, I am not starving - and neither is my cat, I have telephone and internet and tv - though it's not cable, lol.

The only thing I need to do is to keep putting myself out there until the door opens again.

This seems awefully personal, I know .. but I came to a place in my life a long time ago where I realized, people don't say enough. They keep things to themselves, they don't talk about taboo topics, and they don't talk about personal stuff .. and well .. does it really matter? Honestly.

So, I'll end here. I'm not happy with my life. I'm not, but I'm not so far gone as to not see past the rain. And, God is it raining hard, :(

LionQueen · It Doesn't Matter Who We Were Before ...

Well, I see some people did stop by today.

Still jobless ... I can put an extension on the rent which will add up to 15 extra days to figure out rent ... after that I dunno.

I was once given 12 hours to evacuate a rent by the month one room apartment. My pastor at the time brought a couple of guys over and they loaded my stuff into their cars having no idea what we were doing with it. I left that apartment with no place to live.

So, we were going to put the stuff into this guys house and I was going to stay with this woman ...that didn't happen.

When we got to the guys apt, there was one open and I moved into that apartment that day and did not spend one night without a home after that 12 hour notice of eviction.

So, while there are people around me who think I don't seem to understand the seriousness of my situation or that I am not responding appropriately ... I know where I am. I know my situation. I have been in much worse even.

But, for now, what I have to do to survive is to deal with what is in front of me right now. To do what it is I need to do today. If I think too hard on what my fate will be 15 to 30 days from now then I will have a complete breakdown and ensure me sleeping under a bridge in a month.

So, today, after figuring out some pressing bill stuff, and checking out the job sites, I cleaned out my closet .. have cleared out three bags full of stuff that I didn't need. I've gathered a bunch of Christmas ornaments and decorations that I have not used in 2 years. In about an hour I am taking them across the street and giving them to an ex-coworker.

No boasting for myself, but this guy is someone who has dogged me so many times while I was working there that he could win a competition for it. But, I know that he is fanatical about decorating for Christmas. He's got a mammoth tree and is extremely crafty. So, he will get a ton of enjoyment from them and he will take better care of them then I probably did.

They say when you are depressed, or feel down one of the best things you can do is to start thinking about other people. So, it is doing me good to make some space in my own home so I have less to figure out what to do with, and also make someone else happy in the process.

I wholeheartedly believe when you get those little inklings of wanting to do something like that you should just do it and not stop to question it.

There is a story that goes that this widow had just herself and her son and enough oil to make one piece of bread for the two of them. It was either Elijah or Elisha who came and he asked her to make him that last piece of bread then told her to go borrow pots from her friends and so she did. Then he told her to start pouring the oil from her pot into those other pots. The oil did not stop pouring until all those pots were filled.

So, she had to empty that one pot before more could come in. It's kind of the same principle. Aside from the fact that it is, whether you want to admit it or not, better for us to give than recieve, we have to give in order to recieve. If we did not ever give, we would not have any space to recieve anything.

I'm not saying go giving to everyone and then sit and wait to get all this stuff back. I'm just saying that we all wait for something to happen in our lives. Whoever or whatever you trust will bring it .. God, the universe .. i dunno. For me, I believe that God provides for me. That the things I recieve come from him so, I really can't recieve them if I'm holding onto all this other stuff. So, I give it to someone else, let go of it and breath the extra air provided by the extra space the stuff isn't taking up anymore and am happy. And I also get to see them enjoy and make use out of it as well.

And yes, this all still is a part of "Believe."

I got up this morning because I believed I could, and I have survived today because I believed I could. And I will get through this time in my life because I believe that I can.

LionQueen · It Doesn't Matter Who We Were Before ...

I believe I can do more than just get by. I believe I can be satisfied with where my life is and where it is going. I believe that regardless of the opinions of others I can and should and will live my life according to what I believe.

Island_Reigns · Yay Lost!!

Thank you for sharing all of that.

Everything you said really hits home with me. It's true that it's good to help others when you can even though it's so hard to do when you're depressed and discouraged! But there really are blessings that come out of it.

LionQueen · It Doesn't Matter Who We Were Before ...

I have learned, that if one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours.

Henry David Thoreau