I understand Val. It just makes you feel so useless and unvalidated. It's the same way I feel sometimes when I tell someone I don't have a drivers license. I think, nobody takes a forty something year old woman seriously who doesn't have a drivers license.

The new development is that I have missed more than a couple of days now from work due to ear problems again and the dr I saw is talking Menieres disease again. So, I'm not too thrilled about that. I have an appointment on Wednesday.

I'm really tired and feel sort of drunkish - not from alcohol just from being tired and with the ear trouble. I'll explain more later.

LionQueen wrote:

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I hate people. Sometimes I just really hate them. And how is it that your friends are the ones who know how to hurt you the deepest?? And then they do!

I saw an online friend of mine I hadn't seen in a long time and he asked how I was doing. Well, I told him the truth, that I'd had a couple of rough weeks and he says "Seems to be the story of your life."

Really??? Well, fine ... I'm a toxic debby downer and if that's how you feel when I mention a very real problem I'm struggling with then get the blank out of my life is what I say. Certainly doesn't need a toxic friend now does he?

 

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 i am hoping he was just having a bad day too... why are you not on facebook? lots of LOST friends are there and it's a nice way to keep in touch. i see why smitty was always there so much!

i am low on cash and can't pay the clinic. can't go to the doc until i pay. and i am out of blood pressure pills. such is life...

 

So, anyway and update on the ears. A few weeks ago, on a Monday evening I had some mild rotational vertigo. (Room started to spin, I started to feel a little nauseous.) So, I took antivert and went to bed. Woke up the next morning and noticed some light sound distortion. Next day the sound distortion had otten worse and I felt a bit out of it ... brain fog is best I can describe it. Every sound, no matter what the sound ... a car passing on the street ... the cat purring next to me in the bed ... all hit my eardrum like a bass drum. Think a sound system with the bass up too high.

I couldn't tolerate any sound. and I had mild disiness on top of that. This all shifted to my right ear and changed to everything sounding mechanical or robotic. So, I could plug up the right ear and tolerate sound reasonably well.

I went to the ER 9 spent 13 hours) only because I have no insurance and it's freecare. Was referred to the ENT with a diagnoses of possible Menieres disease.

The ENT ruled out BPPV and cervical vertigo. tested my hearing and found low-frequency hearing loss in the left ear. Gave me a performance test - had me march in place with my eyes closed. I couldn't march in place. I veered off to the left about a quarter way.

So, I have vestibular testing next week, I see him again week after that and an mri scheduled for June. I don't think he realizes the mri is in June but that's when one was open the earliest.

So, we will see about all this.

 

-- Edited by LionQueen on Saturday 2nd of April 2011 08:53:03 PM

lockesladyness wrote:

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happy birthday to our amber!!! our lovely kateisLOST!

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 Thank you so much LL

Hey! I am on Borean Tundra .. my toon is Hamiyet. Alliance - she's a Nelf druid, level 85. Then I have an 80 Nelf hunter - Karissma and a new level 80 mage Dranei - Madrina. All on Borean Tundra. My 80 Belf priest is on cairne. Her name is MzBourgeois. :)

LionQueen wrote:

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I was trying to post it but for some reason it wouldn't but Happy Be-lated Birthday Kil. :) I hope it was great!

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 Thanks Lion is was a pretty good birthday

LionQueen wrote:

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I have lost my job. I was fired last Tuesday a week ago.

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 Really sorry to hear that! I hope you can find something so much better! You deserve better!

IR!!!  Well, I haven't found anything else but I am getting a small amount from unemployment which is better than nothing. I also have help with my entergy bill.

So, I'm surviving somehow, just going day by day.

AHHHHH CONGRATULATIONS KATE!!!!!!!!
... BY THE WAY HI!!! Long time no see :)

Hi Innocent!